Monday, July 18, 2011

REBOUNDING

When is it considered rebounding?

I have been in a relationship for the last 7 years.
We have been married 5 of those 7 years.
We have not lived together the last 2 ½ years of those 5 years.
I have not laid eyes on him the last 1 yr of those 2 ½ years.
I haven’t spoken to him on the phone the last 2 months of that 1 year.
Until the other day, I hadn’t seen a letter from him for the last 1 month.
Little by little, the separation grew, in every possible way.

Time and space divides us.

We are estranged, living in different states, far across the country.

So I let go. Completely.
With no hopes of ever getting together for at least another several years, if then.

So what is rebounding… dating too quickly after the end of a relationship?

What is the end of a relationship?
How long you’ve been together?
How long you’ve been married?
How long you have or haven’t seen your partner?
How long you have or haven’t talked to them on the phone?

Rebounding… is it too quick to date after 2 ½ years of being alone?

Of course, what about if there have been zero dates?
And you are still not sure if you even want to date?
And there is no one around you that you wish to date?

What if there was someone you met at work that you’d *considered* dating, but they were not interested?
Then you don’t work there anymore anyway, so it doesn’t matter.

Is it rebounding then?

What if you still want your husband, but it is fruitless?
What if your husband still wants you, but circumstances dictate it cannot be?

Is it rebounding then?

What is rebounding anyway?

So I wait. I stay alone.

Whatever.

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